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Baby now that were alone gotta request..Would you make me number one on your playlist?:>
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New Moon : Jun 24, 2009

As if I never existed...

Prologue-What if?

Love, life, meaning …over. When one looses the one they love nothing is ever the same. “Don’t do anything reckless or stupid,” how could I forget him when my mind screamed at me to remember? Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget. I have nothing, am nothing without him. But he’s not here…and he’s never coming back.

What do I do?

It hurt so badly to think of him, but yet I couldn’t stop myself. I could not force the beautiful angels face from my mind no matter how hard I tried. The constant vigil had consequences though, and it was a crippling thing.

The sensation that a huge hole had been punched through my chest, excising my most vital organs and leaving ragged, unhealed gashes around the edges that continued to throb and bleed despite the passage of time war on me. Rationally, I knew my lungs must still be intact, yet I gasped for air and my head spun like my efforts yielded me nothing. My heart must have been beating, too, but I couldn’t hear the sound of my pulse in my ears; my hands felt blue with cold. I begged for an end, a numbness from this pain perhaps a denial that would provide some relief, but it evaded me.

But what if this hole never got any better? If the new edges never healed? If the damage was permanent and irreversible?

How would I survive?

As if he’d never existed, I thought in despair. What a stupid and impossible promise to make! He could steal my pictures and reclaim his gifts, as if that put things back the way they’d been before I’d met him….

As if he’d never existed? That was insanity. It was a promise that he could never keep, a promise that was broken as soon as he made it.

Why should I keep my promise when he’d already broken his? Who cared if I was reckless and stupid? There was no reason to avoid it, no reason why I shouldn't act in the very way he had urged me not to.

I was not Bella anymore. Bella was gone, dead; somewhere I could not reach her. She had died with him that day in the woods and she was not coming back...

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Dec 10 9:15 AM
 
Nebunati-k :*:x:* Mad:*:x:*: pai ce naba
Nebunati-k :*:x:* Mad:*:x:*: sntem
°•georgy baby•°:x: sufletzel langa sufletzel
Nebunati-k :*:x:* Mad:*:x:*: siameze
°•georgy baby•°:x: )
Nebunati-k :*:x:* Mad:*:x:*: alipite
°•georgy baby•°:x: daaaa
°•georgy baby•°:x: )
Nebunati-k :*:x:* Mad:*:x:*: )
 
Dec 10 9:10 AM
 
:*:*:*:*:*:*:*:*:*:*:*
 
 
 
Oct 25 5:29 PM
ANgeL says:
 
aggelosgan@hotmail.com
 
Oct 24 4:17 PM
DJ says:
 
:X:X:X

my lovely little princess :X

te iubesc :X
 
Oct 23 8:32 AM
ANgeL says:
 
hell!!! how you doing??? :)!!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Aug 13 5:24 AM
 
Mais je n'ai que mon ame pour te parler de moi. Oh juste mon ame, mon ame et ma voix. twilight glitters

 
Aug 3 6:38 AM
 
superr nice profil si tu bineinteles super noul look
 
 
Jul 13 12:10 PM
DJ says:
 
si numai de top esti indragostit ? :P
 
Jul 13 2:39 AM
 
imi place topu:D...sunt kiar indrag de el:))
 
Jul 7 12:31 PM
DJ says:
 
am glumit, mihai in leg cu topul :p

si tu ai pus botul repede :))):*

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